I had the best Valentine’s day ever and now that it has a meaning I’m looking forward to the rest of them. I finally wore her down and now Shelley and I are together. I’m so happy and overcome by how glad our friends are for us. She continues to surprise me and I can’t imagine my life without her in it. We’re both truly smitten and it’s great.
I haven’t stopped smiling since Sunday. Seriously, people have commented on it, people I don’t know that well asking why I look so happy. It’s amazing. Neither of us are sure what “it” is but I know that will work itself out. I’m blissfully, deliriously, euphorically happy and it’s her fault.
I’m sat alone on my sofa at 4am typing this whilst my friends are asleep upstairs. I have a happy feeling glowing about me at the moment which is tinged a little in frustration at the things I can’t change. I have made my decisions though and regardless of how things pan out I am certain I have made the right choice.
It’s been a full-on weekend. Chris’ brother Graham came down on Saturday so we had a quiet evening chilling out at home watching Robot Chicken until far too late. After I finished work on Sunday I said goodbye to Chris and Graham as they have jetted off to Oz for a fortnight. Then Ellen, Shelley, Sophie and Craig came over to enjoy a night of movies and highbrow conversation.
We ended up watching High School Musical 2 and Stardust (which, as an aside, you must watch as it is beautiful), with various cult comedy shows thrown in for good measure and talking all through the night. Due to a bout of insomnia on Saturday night and the random blatherings last night I have now been awake for a little over 55 hours but I’ve had a great time.
In a conversation with a friend today I mentioned that I felt bad about something I had thought briefly. He said “We all think like that. That’s why our mouth speaks but our minds are silent.”. I don’t know if that’s a common phrase but regardless I think he is wise beyond his years.
I never thought much of Mr Blunt until I saw him on Top Gear and he came across very well then. Now he’s been on Sesame Street I have the utmost respect for him, if not for his music.
I ended things with Rossana a few days ago. I’m not proud of having done it, nor of having hurt her but it had to end. I was fooling myself into thinking that we could make it work, the romantic in me was telling me that distance wouldn’t be an issue this time. I also tried to ignore my initial misgivings about her but in the end I had to trust my instincts. She was hurt that I don’t want to remain friends particularly as I still speak to Sarah. But the last thing I want to do is start collecting women with whom things haven’t worked out and then continue having potentially awkward conversations with them. Heartless? Perhaps.
I have only made one new years resolution this year and it is to stop meeting people online, if that means I am single for the foreseeable future then so be it, it’s better than hurting good people without ever having met them.
I attempted to cook Toad in the Hole this evening following Chris’ instructions that he had emailed me previously.
YORKSHIRE PUDDING
4 heaped table spoons plain flour
1 egg
1/2 pint milk (substitute about 1/16 with water)
salt
sieve flour + salt into mixing bowl
make a well in the middle
add milk
mix in slowly trying to avoid any lumps
when done, add water and whisk hard for 10 minutes. make sure u make it airy.
put it in the fridge
heat some oil in the tray at bout 180 and brown the sausages
when the oil is hot hot hot put in sausages then pour in chilled batter.
can’t remember if u cook it for 20 or 40 mins, so use ur judgement!
none of it should b too mushy!
I ended up with a nasty sloppy mess with sausages swimming in it. After showing it to Chris and discussing the possible reasons it became clear that I had neglected the egg. I would like to point out at this juncture that his instructions never mention using the egg and I followed them to the letter. So we’re now starting again with the correct batter. It made us laugh so I thought I’d share it.
So I have finally finished work on the photographer’s site. Check it out I’m really proud of it. What with working on that, being busy at Apple and surviving on a tin of soup a day for the last month I have unsurprisingly made myself ill. I have been off sick from work since Friday and have been in bed most of the time, I’m still astounded that I slept for over fourteen hours in a day! I’m feeling much better now though and I’m planning to go back to work tomorrow.
I also used logmein.com for the first time today. Rossana was having a problem with her computer so I managed to VNC to her laptop in Romania and fix it with the minimum of fuss. Their service is brilliant, free and easy to use, I whole heartedly recommend it.