I met up with some friends and the tutor from my A-Level physics class this evening. We had some interesting discussions about religion and beliefs in general. That has lead to me writing this, possibly ill-advised, post on the subject. Up front I will warn you that this may well get soppy but I make no apologies for that.

I was raised as a Christian by a Christian and a non-practicing Roman Catholic in a Christian country. I was taught at CofE schools throughout my education yet I am not religious. Generally I tick the Atheist box on forms that request religious information although I am not technically an Atheist. I don’t believe in God and likewise I don’t believe in the Devil. That is as far as my beliefs are certain.

There are two sides to my beliefs and they are at complete opposites. Part of me wants to believe in magic and nature and all the beauty in the world, whereas, the other part struggles to believe in anything, to the extent that I am only sure that I am real. There is no way someone can prove that they are real, this entire world could be my dream. I can see as I write this that there are connections to ‘The Matrix’ but this idea is far older than those movies and I had thought about it before then. Since I was old enough to have opinions I haven’t believed in God. Although I never got in trouble at school I always used to get odd looks from my teachers when I wouldn’t bow my head in assembly.

My tutor was saying how having extreme beliefs at either ends of the spectrum can be bad for the soul but, for me at least, I am content and happy with my life. I love Jo very much and I believe she loves me, that is what inspires me in everything I do. Some people would be inclined to ask how I would cope if things didn’t work out between myself and Jo but the point is it will. I think it is hard to explain feelings to another person, in particular feelings between two people but we understand each other and that is a miracle in itself. I love her and she loves me and that is all we need.

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